Years Gone, Love of Lies Ended
So many years,
so many lies,
fake love that just broke my heart.
How am I so lonely,
especially when I am with you.
I am sick of these games,
games that twist my heart.
I think I might just hate you,
I think I might just want to be with you.
So obsessed.
So desperate.
So lost.
Stop playing games with my heart.
Come back to me,
Or else I might just hate you.
Something in the way we fight,
the way we depend on one another
Tells me,
You are just kinda crazy.
Yet, I will always be waiting,
for you love,
love that was never given.
I am just crazy.
That maybe,
I need you,
like god needs the devil.
A romp that should not have been taken,
Do not change your path for me,
For I am not the chance that you deserve.
I’m just someone who needs love,
to have another to lean upon,
Someone who makes my other,
Another one that makes me happy.
For I no longer need,
want,
love,
You anymore.
Why does it feel like I can’t go on without you?
These are just thoughts stemming from fear,
of the fear of being alone,
for,
We don’t need them,
We don’t want them.
Not anymore.
The effort to try to change into a mold to satisfy your love,
requests that you so easily change,
I slip into a hopeless loop,
only trying again and again,
to conform to demands that are never satisfied.
A simple question of the truth.
A question that had an answer.
An answer that you knew deep down was true,
Yet goes unanswered.
A truth you so easily ran away from,
because of the fear that you are not so perfect, too.
So you disregard,
You run away,
from the one who loves you so much more than you deserve.
Easily abandoned,
Am I just another to be forgotten?
A partner to be so easily gotten ridden.
Yet, I remember the life we created,
The way you lay your head on my shoulder,
will not be forgotten.
I will remember the good things we had,
the love we once shared,
For you will always be my rock.
What went wrong?
What went right?
I feel so hopeless,
when you lay your eyes upon me,
making me feel so happy,
believing that only you and me,
could be.
I just want you to myself,
I don’t want anyone else.
Those eyes could only be mine,
For I will give the world to make you mine.
With every step I take with you,
I try to capture your heart,
to prove I only have love for you.
There is no place I want to be,
only to be with you.
Every chance I take,
to find your love,
to prove my devotion.
I feel so forgotten,
I feel so far away.
The torture of the push and pull of your love,
only leaves a desire to be with another.
I can no longer be with you,
I no longer have love for you.
We have become past shadows,
love to be easily forgotten.
For you no longer have a place,
in my heart.
I love you.
Goodbye.